Tuesday, January 13, 2009
i havent felt so much pain in a very long time.the last time was maybe the fact tt i was no longer part of the choir..im an alumni now..well.let's start on today.
called linette a few times but she dint pick up,and i had absolutely no idea when im working cause i couldn't open her email..i was trying for a very long time,and in the end,i decided t wait for Germain's sms..anw,i woke up at 4 in the morn when i slept at 1am.i was super tired! found out tt driver was coming at 5am to send me to airport! when i reached at 5.15,i was LOST.lost in terms of..i had no idea where the visa roadshow was nor what to do.in the end,linette told me i had to have my I/C.i tried going to police pass office and begged them to let me use my ez-link card t exchange for the transit pass..but they said 'we've procedures t follow.sorry.' and so i really waited for 1st bus t go home and get my ic.its at 6am n im supposed t start work then! i was helpless,quite lost,afraid,wondering what my colleagues would think of me,angry tt i wasnt told earlier,frustrated at myself for being stupid,and alone.i dint shed a tear,told myself its pointless(: the rest of the day was better,i got to wrk and got many enthu passengers in T3 and Budget terminal to dance for me! i threw all my image and dignity away to ask ppl..what's more,with sunday's parkway day.it was terrible for my throat.v hoarse.and at dinnertime i was struck with some news.stunned and just kept eating hahaha.i thought i was gonna cry again but i didnt(: kind of immune,yet it still hurts know? its my imagination lah.it wont be tt bad,and i shld have cherished the chance.i shldnt have been so playful.
i'll be okay.checking out acsi tmr before trying t appeal.im afraid.really.
after such an eventful day,im exhausted.ta ta.
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